eager to find

its raining and 2 hours more to dawn...3 16am,a dark hostel room(thanks to the electricity),a poorly shining light source and a busy laptop...(a sleek sony vaio)...oh n yes the thunder...n myself to fit into this mundane scene.
what am i up to at this  anti snoozing hour!yes--defines the nocturnal characteristics in me.but that isnt a worry...worry is d mind full of thoughts am carrying with me...phew was just shocked for a moment,this lightning and thunder are adding weightage to my already heavy thoughts...
well like u even i seem confused about my late retirement 2 my blog but situations around me have forced me to think and rethink...does it happen to u  too that you endleesly seek an answer to an already answered question expectant of your perfect answer and only dismayed at final outcome...hey hey whats this,this cant happen to me again...uh uh uh..cruel life...dint even let me browse the initial speck of overflowing emotions in me...this time thanks to d flickering light of my priced sleek gadget ...phew it wil be dead in few minutes from now...hope not the questions,apprehensions,emotions and hope in me...     
                                                              

                                                                                                          to be continued...